Teacher as Container

I’m groggy because I was woken early and then made the mistake of going back to sleep for the hour or so before my alarm rang at 5:45. My sleeps lately are fitful, at best. Oh the joys of end of year!

We began our first ministry exams this week. This week my role has shifted somewhat, from teacher to invigilator. I’m no longer working with content and structure but with time and stress management. For some of my students, these exams are their last for others they aren’t so sure. The stress is palpable.

A few years ago, when I was working on my Masters project in Human Systems Intervention – a project where I consulted with a small school to help them rediscover their focus – I read an article called Consultant as Container: Assisting Organizational Rebirth in Mandela’s South Africa. This article comes to mind often as I work with high school students, especially given the kind of work that I do. The premise is that when the consultant is able to work with clients in a way that they absorb their feelings of anxiety, despair (*insert emotion here*), they (clients and consultant) are able to address those emotions and work together towards change.

I definitely absorb student emotion. That’s part of my job, especially at exam time. For students who are so stressed that it is presenting in behaviour (from tears to sleeping in to violence) I meet with them individually in a separate room and try to get them to talk it out. I tell them to get it off their chests, leave it in the room. I’m not going to judge, I’m just giving them a chance to share their stress so they don’t need to deal with it all on their own.

I am starting to distinguish between my own anxiety or stress and that of my students – or maybe I am trying to convince myself that I’m not as stressed as I feel in order to keep sane for the next few weeks ;)

Can anyone say…TIRED?

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The other morning a colleague pointed out that we have something like 33 more days of teaching. Those are going to be some long days. I am a tired teacher. And this is the worst time of year to be tired! Lately we have had some glorious days of 20+ degrees (that’s celsius) and sunshine and no one wants to be in the hot stuffy classroom. The students are restless, and so is their teacher.

I also have a major project due tomorrow (though I may not have it in on time – can Saturday be considered ‘end of the week’? I think so…). The first of many to come over the next few years as I make my way through this PhD program.

And I need to write a grant proposal for the school. So hard to think of next year’s activity when I am so tired!

And, we had so much snow this year that we have no more PED days left in our year!

Yup, tired.

Fouund this on Squidoo:

Tips for Tired Teachers.

Haven’t read it yet. I’ll get around to it when I’ve had some rest ;)